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happy birthday...
Oct. 18th, 2007 09:57 pmHi mom. It's hit me several times today, that it's your birthday. You would have been 69. I'm sure if you were still here, I'd be arguing with you about something, as much as John argues with his mom and grandma. But at the same time, if you were still here, would we be in the place we are now?
I wish you could see your grandkids. I know they'd love to see you; they ask about you quite often. I don't know if we're the best parents - I'm sure we could be better - but we're doing as best we can. For that matter, I think John would have suprised you. I don't think you thought much of him when you first met him, but he's the stronger of us, although I think I've got him beat as to stubborness. We have been having some differences lately, but seriously, I would have not made it through the crisis earlier this year without him. I think, though, that you approved at the end.
In previous years, I'd get a card, write a message in it to you, and burn it. Today, I send a note off into the ether of the internet. That was just getting started when you left us; I know you'd have loved it. You were the original techie in our family, learning Cobol and that weird complicated print graphics program I still think was way too involved. I wish I could show you Photoshop and drawing tablets; you always loved artwork too and never had space for it - I wonder what you'd think of all the digital art people do now? I do remember arguing with you about whether photography was art or not (you didn't think so); I wonder how you'd feel about fractals?
I know you passed way this month too, a few days before Halloween. But I'd rather remember you on your birthday. Ah, don't worry. We never skipped Halloween because of what happened to you; I know you'd have hated that. You'd be shocked that this year, I'm actually going to try sewing a costume for Angus; I've always disliked sewing clothes, but have been known to do it for crafts, which I think costumes count as.
Wish you were here, mom. So many things I wish I could ask. Miss you much.
(More October thoughts on mom)
I wish you could see your grandkids. I know they'd love to see you; they ask about you quite often. I don't know if we're the best parents - I'm sure we could be better - but we're doing as best we can. For that matter, I think John would have suprised you. I don't think you thought much of him when you first met him, but he's the stronger of us, although I think I've got him beat as to stubborness. We have been having some differences lately, but seriously, I would have not made it through the crisis earlier this year without him. I think, though, that you approved at the end.
In previous years, I'd get a card, write a message in it to you, and burn it. Today, I send a note off into the ether of the internet. That was just getting started when you left us; I know you'd have loved it. You were the original techie in our family, learning Cobol and that weird complicated print graphics program I still think was way too involved. I wish I could show you Photoshop and drawing tablets; you always loved artwork too and never had space for it - I wonder what you'd think of all the digital art people do now? I do remember arguing with you about whether photography was art or not (you didn't think so); I wonder how you'd feel about fractals?
I know you passed way this month too, a few days before Halloween. But I'd rather remember you on your birthday. Ah, don't worry. We never skipped Halloween because of what happened to you; I know you'd have hated that. You'd be shocked that this year, I'm actually going to try sewing a costume for Angus; I've always disliked sewing clothes, but have been known to do it for crafts, which I think costumes count as.
Wish you were here, mom. So many things I wish I could ask. Miss you much.
(More October thoughts on mom)
